THIS IS SCARING THE SHIT OUTTA ME
I had on new clothes, new sneaks on my feet. I was there for class on time, Went to the back and took my seat. Yeah, I'm moving up, I'm already grown. Soon I'll be graduating, And out on my own. I talked to some of my friends, We were all having fun. Said some things I shouldn't have said, Did stuff I shouldn't have done. I knew I was different. I felt God touch my heart, I knew I should set a standard, But then I'd be set apart. Walking to the bus, I was not looking for strength. I heard the car tires screeching, But now it's too late.
I'm standing in this room, And I can see the heavenly gate. Oh no! I never prayed. I thought I had time to get it straight. An angel walked to me, He had a book in his hand. I knew it was the Book of Life, When would this dream end? I told him my name, And he began to look. Then he looked at me sadly and said, "Your name is not in this book".
"Angel, this is a dream, No, I can't be dead!" He closed the book and turned away, He whispered "You cannot proceed ahead". "No...no this can't be real, Angel, you can't turn me away. Let me talk to God, Maybe he'll let me stay!"
He led me to the gate, Jesus came to me. He did not let me in but said, "Beloved what is your need?" "Jesus," I cried, "please, Don't cast me away from you." Tears ran down his face as he said, "You knew what you needed to do." "Lord, please I'm young, I never thought I would die. I thought I'd have plenty of time, Death caught me by surprise. Lord, I went to church, Please Jesus, I believe." He said "you would not accept me, My love you would not receive."
"Lord, there were too many hypocrites, They weren't being true." He took a step back and asked, "What does that have to do with you?" "Lord, my family claimed to be saved, They weren't real!" "You know." He said, I died for you, Now I have to go."
I fell to my knees crying to Him, "Lord, I planned to be real tomorrow!" I couldn't make Him understand, I had never felt such sorrow. Then it hit me hard, I said, "Lord, where will I go?" He looked into my eyes and said, "My child you already know." "Please Jesus," I begged, "The place is so hot." It seemed to trouble and grieve him, He whispered, "DEPART FROM ME, I KNOWYOU NOT."
"Lord, you're supposed to be love, How can you send me to damnation?" He replied, "With your mouth you said you loved me, But each day you rejected my salvation."
With that in an instant, Day turned into night. I never knew such torture could be, Now too late, I know the Bible is right. Hell has no age. It is a place of torture, Separated from God and full of rage. You know, I thought it was funny - a joke, But this one thing is true. If you never accept Jesus Christ, HELL IS WAITING FOR YOU!

im scared. very. these stuff keep coming to me day n night.. this particular one is partically true for me. im exactly like the person in this story, just taking my own sweet time, thinking that i've got another 50 years for me to know and love Jesus.. how easy it is for us to die.. i could be dead any minute..
it is really freaky. this is like probably the 3rd one i've come across. is this some kind of sign? it might well be. i'm not taking no chances. boon hock's right. sometimes i find him a pain in the neck but still he is right. "seek the Lord with all your heart and u will find Him". yeah.. another big thank u to boon hock.
i always thot i could wait. but i guess not. i don tink i wanna rot in hell for eternity. that sucks. im gonna start afresh n learn more bout Him.
anyway, today was the last day of school. quite funny for majority of the time until the new teachers came in. our new teachers are super strict. donno whether gd or bad. we got the fierce chem teacher as our CT. gd. at least the atmosphere will be conducive enough for us to learn. then the fat choir teacher as our PCT. she's probably ok i guess. then got PAT THONG as the 2nd PCT. she seems rather strict. but well, wassup with her surname?! =P
well yeah, that's bout it. still have to go for ATC on 26th to 28th nov. gotta put up with those New Town girls. can't stand them. damn irritating. meanwhile, must jog and swim regularly. AND PLAY SOCCER. =)
oh well. ok. time to go. im actually reading books. daniel, u bloody influenced mi into reading.

ESCAPE FROM THE CLUTCHES...
haha. literally. today was rather uneventful. went to school hoping for some fun i must say. reached school n then it hit me. WHY DID I COME TO SCHOOL WHEN NO ONE ELSE IS GONNA BOTHER TO COME? i frantically called andrew -buaya- n realised he was coming.
played bridge till like 9.55am. then went to eat. that was how slack n boring it was. no teachers in class at all.
chen came back from lit lesson at 10.20am. we decided to "escape from the clutches of school". luckily we blended in with our bags becos everyone else was carrying their bags for day or con camp.. phew.. sprinted out of school n quickly flagged a cab. PHEW..
nothing much happened otherwise.. gonna pon till fri.. promotion day i tink.. cya.

GOD EXISTS...
A man went to a barbershop to have his haircut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber beganto work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.
"Well,you just have to go out in the street to realize thatGod doesn't exist.
Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and thecustomer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt.
The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to thebarber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist.""How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!""No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards,like that man outside."Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber." What happens, is,people do not come to me. ""Exactly!" affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens,is, people don't go to Him and do not look forHim. That's why there's so much pain andsuffering in the world."

how true...... its ppl like mi who complain how God doesn't exist. its ignorant ppl like mi who wonder why evil ppl are still out there. its faithless ppl like mi who wonder why ppl are still suffering out there even tho there is a God.
amazing.
our visions are clouded with so many other irrelevant things when we shld be focusing on God.. Satan's pro.. gotta admit that.. can't beat him.. unless with assistance frm God..
Time to find out wat God is.. can't waste no more time.. my time may be up anytime.. thx boon hock..

MIXED FEELINGS
gee, received my results on tuesday. donno whether i should be happy or sad. well, i passed both my math. -due to moderation- THANK GOD! oh yeah, top of level for chi. yesh! however, the rest of my subjects were rather horrendous. very ordinary i must say.
hmmm, then i ponned skool on wed. sigh. life's getting a lil too boring nowadays. onli xbox n comp n soccer. getting way too boring.
came to skool todae. err, played some soccer. not a bad game for mi todae. i actually managed to run a lot n cause some trouble n i actually hit the post once which was not wat i wanted. i wanted it to go in. damn. aaron nearly tore off my leg with his two-footed challenge. my leg doesnt feel the same now. haha. quite satisfied with my performance overall. can do better.
i wanna mod my xbox now. lol.
looking forward to soccer games during the hols. sigh. need some games to perk mi up. damn bored now. lindsay lohan is hot. ashlee simpson is hot. damn.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE...

ok. the title's a lil dumb n outta point but still. wat the heck.
heh. i actually went to sengkang methodist church todae. gotta noe a few ppl. quite gd. doh. yepp. boon hock was impressed by the speaker. that's gd too.
err. went home after that and stoned till now. results tmrw. which is gay. hai.

do u ever feel like breaking down
do u ever feel outta place
like somehow u just dun belong
n no one understands u
do u ever wanna run away
do u lock urself in ur room
with the radio turned up so loud
but no one hears u screaming

no u don noe wat its like
when nothing feels all right
u don noe wat its like to be like mi

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when u're down
to feel like u've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
but there's no one there to save u
no u don noe wat its like
welcome to my life

do u wanna be somebody else
are u sick of feeling so left out
are u desperate to find something more
before ur life is over
are u stuck inside a world u hate
are u sick of everyone around
with their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
well deep inside ur bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
what its like

welcome to my life

WAT'S THE MATTER? CAN'T KEEP UP? - Lars Ulrich

lars ulrich. he is da man. drums like a mad guy having a seizure.. he's so pro.. God, gimme like a quarter of his abilities n i will be like super happy. lol. went for a jamming session at ben's house. OI GUITARISTS! CAN U ALL LIKE LEARN HOW TO PLAY A PROPER SONG B4 COMING?! ok as in a full song. we always stop like halfway. then ben n i are left fuming, sitting on the chair n hitting those drums.
yepp. oh yeah. dun worry too much ben. it will all be ok. the Dude upstairs will take care of the prob. nothing He can't do. =P
tau-poked the orange b4 we left. lol. nigel is big. i had to shift becuz he was flattening mi.... so yeah.
my dream is to become lars ulrich.. argh.. those ppl dedicate their life to drumming... wish i could but i have so many more important thingys to deal with. yepp. typical life of a stressed up singaporean boy.
results coming out next week. dammit. i hope i pass everything. dear God, pls let that happen. dun let mi die in my parents' hands. lol.
yepp. that's bout it. lars ulrich... my idol...

WE'RE BACK TO SKOOL
ok. first day of skools after the dreaded exams. okok. we went to skool for like sleeping n playing. went for the dumb farewell chapel thingy. spent 2 whole hours in the chapel doing nth. went back to class. got soaked for no reason under the sun.
went to eat n play soccer. the ball was too light. but no excuse for my poor performance todae. doh. went back n did bio. not realli. we were jux fooling ard n playing. oh well.
then slept thru chem. wee~ skool's super relaxing now. then got dragged ard "greece" -clementi- they were looking for FIFA 2005. the pirated one. im against piracy btw. errr. yepp. then went to thomson plaza. dammit. the damn nice drums were like 2000 bux. i need a lot of cash man. God help. lol.
came back n jux played n played. gee. im starting to feel bored.
gonna pon on fri n go ben's house to jam. lol. not like we learn anything in skool anymore. doh. besides, it may be the last day of fun since we may be getting our results back on like mon. dammit.
yeppp. pls tag. my tag board still very limpy.

ITS FINALLY OVER N DONE WITH

wat a relief.... exams are finally over. after 8 days of pure livin hell, evrything is back to normal. its been realli a bad period of time for mi. mugged a lot. blah. starting with fri's chem paper. it was so demoralising half of the class think we will not make it alive.
haha. err, well had my bdae during one of the exam days. God, couldn't u have like created mi later or earlier? doh. not in the middle of EXAMS. -shivers-
boon hock with his scheming mind managed to get durian cake on my face and my arms. xinwei too. xinwei, u're scheming. grr. smash in my face. yes, n chen, u were the onli one clean of durian cake that day. thank the Lord for that.
im still 10 tho. i should be studying PETS coursebook with all the stereotypical names but im studying sharpening the senses. yes n other examples.

ok summary of my subjects
chem:pass but not very high
chi:a1
a math: FAIL
e math: b3 or b4
lit:b3 or b4
eng:a1 or a2
ss:a1 or a2
hist:a1 or a2
bio:a1 or a2
physics: don know

well well. then todae finish went to play soccer for awhile. gotta say my touches are failing mi. need to sharpen up. doh. then thot jerome how to use GPRS. jerome, live in this world. don be boyao. i tink even boyao knows wat is GPRS. -smacks head in agony- watched white chicks. ben n i agree the evil chicks were super hot. yes they are. oh well. all of us laugh till our sides hurt so damn bad. well, wed is results day. i hope i pass everything. bye. n PLS TAG WHOEVER SEES THIS!!! my blog seems so dead. -points to spider webs and rust-